Day 9 - 176

What a hard 2 days... it seems like when I think everything is going right they take a turn for the worse. My heart is breaking and i cant stand to be here today. I want everything to be ok and I want everything to go back to normal. I feel like all I can do is cry right now. Everything I have worked so hard for is going down in flames right in front of me. I pray things will be ok. I just need to hang in there and concentrate on doing whats best for me. Thanks for the support.